!!!Fake Identity!!!

Never had an opinion but opined,
Never had a goal but pursued,
Never had an interest but showed,
Never had a passion but feigned,
Never had a desire but desired,
Never had a wish but prayed,
Never had a choice but made,
Never had an aversion but loathed,
Never had a will but willed,
Never had a belief but believed,
Never had a character but assumed,

But now I realize I never had an entity,
It was nothing but a Fake Identity

For I inhibited the child in me,
For I yearned for the best in me,
For I mistook emulation as imitation,
For I forsook any interest, passion before maturation,
For I never tried to braze a trail,
For I deeply feared to fail,
For I never believed in myself,
For I solicited even unnecessary help,
For I never considered what I liked,
For I ever pursued what most people liked

This quest for the best has left me nowhere,
I do not know where I go from here,

Bcoz now I have realized I never had an entity,
It was nothing but a FAKED IDENTITY!!!!

Desert Rose
7th October, 2008
Stockholm, Sweden