Heart on a Deathbed…

She says it was pure and pristine,
Exuded freshness and oozed life,
An erstwhile heart…

Lust for laurels, Craving for glory,
And thus preoccupied,
I do not remember when it died,

But today as I walk in its cortege,
To bid it a final goodbye,
I am wistful and recall…

How I turned so artificial,
Acquired a persona so superficial,
How my mind trampled a moaning heart,
Strangled it to death, with a smirk,
How I stifled emotions,
Lost in the labyrinth of the bestest,
How I fell a prey to the dreams I had weaved,
As they boomeranged on me nastily heaved,
How ambitions became obsession,
And thereafter fanaticism,

But today as I walk in its cortege,
To bid it a final goodbye,
I long to get it back to life,
I long to see it revive,
I do not know if I can,
For it has already died,
My deceased heart……

Desert Rose
10th October, 2008
Stockholm, Sweden

!!!Fake Identity!!!

Never had an opinion but opined,
Never had a goal but pursued,
Never had an interest but showed,
Never had a passion but feigned,
Never had a desire but desired,
Never had a wish but prayed,
Never had a choice but made,
Never had an aversion but loathed,
Never had a will but willed,
Never had a belief but believed,
Never had a character but assumed,

But now I realize I never had an entity,
It was nothing but a Fake Identity

For I inhibited the child in me,
For I yearned for the best in me,
For I mistook emulation as imitation,
For I forsook any interest, passion before maturation,
For I never tried to braze a trail,
For I deeply feared to fail,
For I never believed in myself,
For I solicited even unnecessary help,
For I never considered what I liked,
For I ever pursued what most people liked

This quest for the best has left me nowhere,
I do not know where I go from here,

Bcoz now I have realized I never had an entity,
It was nothing but a FAKED IDENTITY!!!!

Desert Rose
7th October, 2008
Stockholm, Sweden